What is Evolution?

“We began as a mineral.
We emerged into plant life, and into the animal state, and then into being human, and always we have forgotten our former states, except in early spring when we slightly recall being green again.
That’s how a young person turns towards a teacher.
That’s how a baby leans toward the breast, without knowing the secret of its desire, yet turning instinctively.
Humankind is being led along an evolving course, through the migration of intelligences, and though we seem to be sleeping, there is an inner wakefulness that directs the dream, and that will eventually startle us back to the truth of who we are.”
— The Story of Evolution
Rumi, 13th Century

4.20.2021

Perpetual Persistent Procrastination

Unsure of when, where or why but somehow blogging, and to some extent writing, had become a tedious and unbearable task. 

Past. Perfect. Tense. 

There was a point in recent memory when all of this was fun, a release, an escape but that time is so far gone it’s not even in the rear view mirror at this point. 

Uncertain of what the future would hold... focus shifted to more... pressing matters:

‘Adulting’ 

That’s one way of putting it. Responsibility and the humdrum of everyday life eventually becomes a never-ending hamster wheel. 

On and on and on and on...



Even the task of figuring out what to eat each and everyday becomes a chore. 

Who was the first person to sell the lie that growing up would be fun? We need to speak. 

Nevertheless, procrastination persists into perpetuity. 

Things remain undone indefinitely, until they become rotten then forgotten. 

Never to be thought of again, lest the anxiety of inconsistency sets in and sows seeds of self doubt and unworthiness. All over again.

What is it all worth in the end? 

Living, often times from hand to mouth. Working to pay bills and “put food on the table”. 

To buy a car? A house? Some land? Then what? When well it ultimately be time to just chill and take time to one’s self?

Why does time always seem to strangle the fun and ease out of every single activity? 

The struggle is in remaining present throughout it all. Wresting control from the past while limiting mental sojourns into the future. 

Planning becomes a means of putting structure to something that can at times seem too unpredictable. 

In reality, procrastination will perpetually persist for as long as time will allow. 

The trick is to persevere regardless. 

Fight through the funk and find the strength to function optimally.  

Even if it seems too late or way past the appointed time. 

If it is meant to be it will find its way to just...

BE.

iNi 

A persistent work-in-progress 

Dee

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Our Deepest Fear by Marianne Williamson, A Return to Love

"Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate.
Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure.
It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us.
We ask ourselves, Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous?
Actually, who are you not to be?
You are a child of God.
Your playing small does not serve the world.
There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you.
We are all meant to shine, as children do.
We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us.
It is not just in some of us; it is in everyone.
And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same.
As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others."