What is Evolution?

“We began as a mineral.
We emerged into plant life, and into the animal state, and then into being human, and always we have forgotten our former states, except in early spring when we slightly recall being green again.
That’s how a young person turns towards a teacher.
That’s how a baby leans toward the breast, without knowing the secret of its desire, yet turning instinctively.
Humankind is being led along an evolving course, through the migration of intelligences, and though we seem to be sleeping, there is an inner wakefulness that directs the dream, and that will eventually startle us back to the truth of who we are.”
— The Story of Evolution
Rumi, 13th Century


I'm Back!!!!

It's been so long since I was last on here that I actually forgot my password, go figure.. but no sweat....I made it back...the prodigal writer has returned...not that I was a hotbed of posts before I came here but hey! moving to a new country is pretty time consuming.

I'm just glad to finally be back to normal i.e. online idling, with the excpetion of instead of waking at noon (not a minute before) bunning a scliff and having a cocktail, I now wake early in the morning (which is evening in Jamaica so it's kinda the same thing) and get ready for the 45 minute drive to school where I pretend to be an English teacher which really means being a repository of English pronounciation ["Repeat after me"etc.]. Heck I don't mind! It pays the bills...more that pays the bills actually...it bought me this here laptop :D Sugoi !!! It is now officially my lover, shit I spend more time touching it than I do touching a man.

Let me not even start with that because i'm beginning to think that my well of sexual fantasies will soon run dry. How will I continue to write my erotically provocative "stories" without inspiration? I guess it's good that I gathered enough "research" before I left, I just hope it will last. Because despite the assinine questions ppl keep asking me about "finding anyone over here yet" I highly doubt that i'll find a man that a) i'm attracted to b) speaks English c) is exceptionally good at sex and last but not least d) doesn't mind having casual feelings-free sex. It just seems so easy to get caught up in a relationship, I mean I have already met someone who has the silly notion that he and I are an item simply because I gave him my number and we went to dinner once. SO what if were two of the few black ppl here? does that mean that I should automatically lower my standards? I think not.

Alas, i'll just have to have sex vicariously through my characters.

I'm really planning to dedicate more time to developing characters and not just sex stories to make ppl horny, I think i've sorta gotten the hang of that, time for a challenge.

I doubt anyone will read this, which is not a problem, I'm more than used to communicating and conversing with myself. It's just that these thoughts and at times random stories need an outlet. They're just floating around my head, colliding with my memories and my dreams and causing one bag of confusion. I need mental organisation because i'm really starting to think i've got this ADD thing they keep talking about. Anyways enough of that shit, my life's playlist is just set on shuffle is all. :) It feels so good though, to be doing this again. I look forward to doing it everyday from now on. What with me having soooo much free time to myself. Maybe i'll even write that novel i've been talkin about, maybe! One step at a time though, let's not put the cart before the donkey.

Before I sign out though...to the person who posted about living in Ijuin, if you do happen to stumble back across this here blog could you please leave me your contact info or something, as you could have guessed by now i'm here, for about two months now...so plz drop me a line, maybe we can get together, i've got ppl here who wanna meet you as well. shiriamashooka? (i think :-S)

Ok that's it for now, unless a story comes to me out of the blue then i'll hurry and post it before it drifts away...oh the wonders of wireless internet and portable computers. I Heart NIPPON!

Oyasuminasai! (Good Night...yeh it's night here now)

Nadyadee-san signing out!

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Our Deepest Fear by Marianne Williamson, A Return to Love

"Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate.
Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure.
It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us.
We ask ourselves, Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous?
Actually, who are you not to be?
You are a child of God.
Your playing small does not serve the world.
There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you.
We are all meant to shine, as children do.
We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us.
It is not just in some of us; it is in everyone.
And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same.
As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others."