What is Evolution?

“We began as a mineral. We emerged into plant life, and into the animal state, and then into being human, and always we have forgotten our former states, except in early spring when we slightly recall being green again. That’s how a young person turns toward a teacher. That’s how a baby leans toward the breast, without knowing the secret of its desire, yet turning instinctively. Humankind is being led along an evolving course, through the migration of intelligences, and though we seem to be sleeping, there is an inner wakefulness that directs the dream, and that will eventually startle us back to the truth of who we are.”
— The Story of Evolution - Rumi, 13th Century

10.13.2007

Fugitive

I'm hiding from the NHK man. YUP. I'm sitting here in my apato, lights off, pretending i'm somewhere else, while he rings my doorbell, over and over again. DING DONG! DING DONG! The thing is when he came the first time, I told him to return @ 3. So now i'm pretending I went on the road. He doesn't seem to buy it. DING DONG! DING DONG! Knock Knock Knock!

SILENCE

OK I think he's gone...pheeew!

Why am I hiding? you may be wondering. Well hear this: apparently in this wonderful country everyone who owns a TV has to pay the TV station ppl (NHK) a fee every month, even though I DON'T WATCH TV! It's preposterous! Atleast I think so, but when in Nippon do as the Nipponese, I guess.
But the thing is, I don't have the money. I mean I probably do, in my bank account, but I think that money would be much better spent on food than on paying for owning a TV.

What I really want to know is why it is EVERYONE neglected to inform me of this tidbit of information. I mean I know I'm making enough money to supplement all these expenses they keep springing up on me, but what about a little prior notice? Is that too much to ask? What if I had debts to be repaying in Jamaica and already sent back half of my paycheck? What would happen then?

I mean in Jamaica, TVJ and CVM don't charge us do they? bwoy...first world mi batty! Not that it would stop anyone from bridging the TV jus like them bridge di cable. Speaking of cable, I have yet to hook up my satellite, the satellite I was sold but didn't pay for. Simply because the fassy who sold me the satellite forgot to tell me that I'd have to buy a card to actually watch anything...a card that costs more than the satellite... frigging hell!
And so, since I got the laptop I haven't even turned on the TV and now I have to pay for having it in here, collecting dust. Sheeeeeeiiiiit!

I am sick and tired of ppl assuming that I have money at my disposal, burning my pockets. I mean, the office recently told me that I have to pay for my hotel stay in Tokyo as well as the plane trip to Kagoshima and some other miscellaneous stuff. Yes, they're gunna transfer the money to my account and all I have to do is go to the bank and hand in a form, but then after I got that all cleared up, the office lady kindly informed me that the transfer comes at a cost, and i'd have to pay it because they'd only be fwding the amount on the bill. Now what a raas is this?
I never even know that I was going to have anything to do with the payment of the trip, as far as I was concerned it was to be paid by either CLAIR or the office and I need not worry about it. So now fi dem a spring dis upon mi is a autaclaps! Mi bex man, mi know seh a nuh nuff money but geez, dem couldn't just pay it dem damn self an lef mi outta it? Mi feel seh a jus badmin dem badmin!

DINGDONG! Knock Knock Knock! DINGDONG!

Mi raaas! Him come back!


Mi gone yah
I-N-I, NadyaDee

Our Deepest Fear by Marianne Williamson, A Return to Love

"Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine, as children do. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It is not just in some of us; it is in everyone. And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others."