20.7.10

Extension

For a variety of reasons I decided to re-contract for one more year on the JET Programme. A Programme which initially was supposed to be for just one year, maximum 3. But here I am, 3 years later embarking on that fourth and final revolution and I can't help but think: Am I really supposed to do this? Am I really supposed to stay here?

Most if not all of my friends have already left or are leaving this year and I feel myself drifting further away from my friends and family back home. And all for what? Another humid summer and frigid winter? Do the +ves truly outweigh the -ves?

I suppose this is a crucial crossroad for me. As I clear the 25 years of life hump. A final year to reach full maturity. I hope.

Jaaa well, what else can I do but ride out this wave. One more year.

iNi

am extending my self.

NadYa Dee


on 20.7.10
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  1. deepniang@gmail.com /Amoul RagalJul 22, 2010 09:31 PM
    Bless and Luv sista what a gwan
    I and I tink dat ya better stay fo 1 or 2 more years
    Japan is great sista
    Jah bless ya
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  2. everyone goes through that period of transition/uncertainty/anxiety of what the future holds. It's funny that you mention 25 because I felt the same way about what I wanted to do with my life. What I am learning is that it doesn't just come to you and you have to live each day to the fullest and enjoy the journey as much if not more than the destination.

    Blessings Nadya and I know you'll find your way.
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because your opinion counts....really /-P

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