Poet ja nai

I don't write poetry anymore

for I am no longer weighed down by the conflicting emotions of our clandestine affair
by tears that wouldn't fall, couldn't fall
because all those words are gone

now only old and tattered pages hold the testament of years of repression
as I continued to deny and suppress any and everything we ever had

words I could never share with you

you see, I can't write poems of love or heartache anymore
of the pain of forbidden love
the smell of your skin
the taste of your lips
that longing that forever lingers in my soul

because the truth is

you were my poems

and now
without you

I no longer feel the urge to write