After My Life

As my mind tries to come to terms with the events of the past few days, this prose poured out of my heart.

After my Life, when I have fulfilled my true purpose on earth, I will be welcomed by all who have left before me; all those I continued to carry on in my heart. After my life here on earth I will be greeted by a natural mystic, welcomed by the sweet melodies of Robert Nesta Marley. After I leave all my worldy possessions, I will become one with a greater power, the same power that had kept and sustained me throughout my entire life. I will be the highest, higher than I ever have been, engulfed in the richness and fullness of the creator.

After my life there is no pain, only love. And as I emerge, all senses meld into one. There is a lightness signifying a unification of the mind and the spirit and a wholeness of understanding. Then all things I could never fathom are explained and my soul is finally at peace.

After my life there is no black nor white, but a kaleidoscope of mystical proportions, a panorama of my life from beginning to then. After my life there is no day or night, no wrong or right. No class, status or race, no first or last. There is no ghetto or uptown, no heaven or hell. Words lose their very meaning in a place where there is no need for explanation.

After my life there is an endless river of happyness cascading from an immense waterfall flowing out towards the sea, and from there I can see everyone standing, waving me ashore. And I float towards them, weightless and the emptiness I have carried my whole life is replaced by ecstacy.

There is no noise but continuous harmony, a total cohesion of sound. Because, after my life it's one big jam session, a never-ending stageshow. And everyone I have ever known and loved just a chill, puffing and passing around a large chalice filled with peace. Because after my life there is no war, no segregation, no malice, no animosity, no revolution... just revelation.

After my life: Garnett Silk, Peter Tosh, Barry White, Nat King Cole, Desmond Dekker, Bob Marley, Dennis Brown, Marvin Gaye, Aaliyah, Lisa 'Left Eye' Lopez, Biggy, Tupac and MJ (2010) along with a slew of others are all performing alongside all the fallen singers, DJs and rappers who never got their true chance to shine and amidst all this I can hear the beautiful voice of Micheal Barnes permeating the atmosphere and I know exactly where I am because there is only the fullness of joy. And I can see Damian and Jaime smiling, the same way I remember them and Taiwo is playing basketball.

After my life, is ring ding time again, Ms. Lou a tell Anancy story and suddenly I feel like a child.

After my life, I am greeted with open arms by my Grandma and Grandpa and even though I have never seen or touched their faces, I know them by their love. Because after my life, there is no sorrow or grief, no pain, no heartache, no fear, no tears, only unconditional, unfailing, eternal love. And for once, I am speechless.

It is there, after this life, that I will sit and wait for those who are left behind. Holding them securely in a bond between our hearts.
Because after my life there is no death. After my life I see paradise.

Nadya Dee
(November 2007)