11.03.2010

The One-Eyed Black Cat


There's a black cat with one eye living in my subconscious. Last night was the second time I saw him. A stray black one-eyed cat comes into my home and won't leave. I woke up this morning wondering what his recurrence could possibly mean. Apparently dreams of a black cat indicates that one is experiencing fear in using ones psychic abilities and believing in ones intuition.
Interesting. I suppose now I need to figure out what my intuition is trying to tell me. So I've decided to look at all superstitions surrounding cats (black cats with missing right eyes in particular) and try to interpret said dream.
So here goes nothing:
From what I can recall the cat shows up at my door. I'm not sure at what point during this dream this occurs as we all know that dreams are seldom chronological (or logical for that matter) but there the cat is, at my door. Then the next thing I know is it's inside. At this point I have no idea the cat only has one eye. I was actually on my way out the door when it appeared. To meet someone who was waiting for me. But then the cat dashes in through the door and I spend the rest of the dream trying to keep it out of my tatami (straw flooring) room and eventually get it out of my apartment.
I recall being afraid to physically remove the cat from my apartment because well, I'm afraid of cats. Not in the OMG-get-that-cat-away-from-me sense but what I am afraid of is a cat scratching me or biting me or attacking me in any way. So while I might play with them the cuddling thing is a no-no cause one never know when they might go batshit crazy and take out your eye.
In any case, eventually someone (no I don't know who but I think it was a male and no I don't know how he got inside) takes the cat up and places it outside. Crisis averted, there endeth the dream (from what I remember).
Now interpretatively (?), cats represent the feminine aspects of our persona and dreams about black cats are generally believed to be lucky. Which indicates to me that perhaps my inner yin is going to lead me to some fortune. 0_o
Then there's the old folklore stating that if you take one of a cats 9 lives then that cats spirit will haunt you. Well here goes, a couple months back I accidentally killed a kitten. It was an accident! I promise! See, I was driving home one rainy night and in the middle of the road there was this baby kitten. I stopped my car immediately, because, one, I didn't want to run over the poor thing and two, I knew that if I didn't do something to help the poor thing would have been crushed by some other vehicle. Unfortunately when I stopped the kitten ran for shelter under my car. I tried to coerce the cat from under the vehicle to no avail. After some time, because I had stopped in the middle of the road, cars were piling up behind me. So I had to move my car to the side to allow them to pass. And that's when it happened. Apparently the cat was right in front of the wheel and well, I think we all know what happened then. I was distraught. To think that my good intentions only lead to the death (supposed) of said kitten. I'm not sure if it was a black cat and I am not 100% sure that kitten died that night but I suppose the memory of that moment has stayed with me ever since. So maybe that little kitten is actually haunting me... o_O



This cat was also in a car accident and lost its right eye. Maybe my dream is in fact trying to tell me something.

Then again. I recently started reading 吾輩は猫である [I am a Cat by Soseki Natsume] so maybe my subconscious is just regurgitating random memories of reading said book. Yeah, that sounds more logical doesn't it?
or
iNi
might just be a witch.
Nadya Dee ...OUT!