4.11.2007

Chest Pains

I woke up yesterday with a pain in my back and thought that all I needed was a nice back rub followed by some wicked backshot to set me straight. After those plans fell through miserably, I decided to exercise it raas out...worked for a while, then the dull-sharp-dull pain returned. This sent me to bed early but alas the sharp pain woke me this morning and I had to draw for the hot water bottle and a nice piping hot cup of honey and ginger tea.

Needless to say, three cups of tea, two refills of the water bottle and a cup of soup later and I am still nowhere near to getting rid of this pain which seems to be riddling my whole body [ I think I feel it in my right arm now]. It constantly transports itself from my back to my chest to my belly bottom, and I relentlessly follow it around with my hot water bottle. I've just about given up on the hot water bottle and my Andrews are all expired, and if i drink another cup of tea I swear I going to start speaking Chinese. I've recieved multiplicitous suggestions from both friends and family as to how to get rid of this pain, from cane to young coconut water. But I think i'd rather to blog it away...

I've pooped/farted ad burped/belched throughout the whole day and the pain still persists, which leaves me with only one conclusion: I have heartburn a.k.a. heartache...

ridiculous sounding I know. But maybe just maybe my current emotional/ romantic situation has decided to manifest itself physically . Which means that until my heart is set to ease this pain will continue and grow until it consumes me whole.

So let me think...why would I be feeling this pain in my chest? Is love or the lack thereof trying to kill me?

I sure hope not...and if that's the case I should have been dead a long time ago. God knows I gave up on any prospect of love years aback.

Could it be the emergence of a past love in my life? Has that old wound been reopened? Is this a sign that I shouldn't even bother.

I believe in signs and if this isn't a sign I don't know what this is....or maybe I just need to adjust my eating patterns and stop going to sleep hungry... but how do I stop going to sleep horny and lonely?

Crackers and tea can't soothe everything...and maybe i've just been trying to soothe the wrong pain...

If that's the case then I need some TLC like my life depends on it...

wait I just pooped again...maybe it really is just gas...